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dytamic"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:37:46","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:0:518714144","name":"dytamic","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"wait. friend"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:37:43","server_id":"Vanilla Server","map":"pl_upward","steam32":"STEAM_0:0:805251981","name":"ForeverFractal117","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"super fair teams btw"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:37:42","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:0:518714144","name":"dytamic","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"i should probably hop off but my friends are here"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:37:10","server_id":"Vanilla Server","map":"pl_upward","steam32":"STEAM_0:1:753957434","name":"Halberd_Hey07","team":3,"is_team":0,"message":"peir is so overated"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:37:06","server_id":"Vanilla Server","map":"pl_upward","steam32":"STEAM_0:1:753957434","name":"Halberd_Hey07","team":3,"is_team":0,"message":"were getting pier"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:37:01","server_id":"Vanilla Server","map":"pl_upward","steam32":"STEAM_0:0:805251981","name":"ForeverFractal117","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"pd is underrated"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:37:01","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:1:444984258","name":"Ralsei","team":3,"is_team":0,"message":"Thats good"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:36:48","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:0:502450143","name":"Merk","team":3,"is_team":0,"message":"halloween"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:36:46","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:0:502450143","name":"Merk","team":3,"is_team":0,"message":"yeah"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:36:43","server_id":"Vanilla Server","map":"pl_upward","steam32":"STEAM_0:0:649755546","name":"JustNoThoughts","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"please no"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:36:40","server_id":"Vanilla 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Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:1:444984258","name":"Ralsei","team":3,"is_team":0,"message":"GoldenHotDog your turn"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:36:18","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:1:563526715","name":"madcaker","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"scrap.tf?"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:36:18","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:0:651258089","name":"Balling chicken","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"not that tf2"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:36:16","server_id":"Vanilla Server","map":"pl_upward","steam32":"STEAM_0:0:649755546","name":"JustNoThoughts","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"when barnbliz?"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:36:15","server_id":"Vanilla Server","map":"pl_upward","steam32":"STEAM_0:1:621175388","name":"Dresden06","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"idk, i figured it worked on a vote system like other servers"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:36:13","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:0:651258089","name":"Balling chicken","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"damn"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:36:11","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:1:444984258","name":"Ralsei","team":3,"is_team":0,"message":"I don't :)"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:36:10","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:1:524815026","name":"SirLiamTheGreat","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"that game sucks"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:36:10","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:0:77744701","name":"joid","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"dude titanfall 2 slaps"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:36:02","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:0:651258089","name":"Balling chicken","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"yo who here plays tf2?"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:35:58","server_id":"Vanilla 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shooty","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"um... me?"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:35:37","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:1:524815026","name":"SirLiamTheGreat","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"all those websites suck but they have a monopoly on trading"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:35:35","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:0:502450143","name":"Merk","team":3,"is_team":0,"message":"yeah bp is faster"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:35:15","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:1:532204639","name":"TiPhoenix","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"SkaTF3"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:35:14","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:1:696695421","name":"Muggz*","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"i will never get tired of hearing that shop theme i could listen to it for eternity"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:35:13","server_id":"Main 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03:34:59","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:1:62799146","name":"scooty shooty","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"got 12 refined, but lets not worry abt the details"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:34:55","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:0:518714144","name":"dytamic","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"the last i'll say of this is that it's disingenuous of me to say i'm not in a bad place but i have done literally nothing to-"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:34:53","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:1:563526715","name":"madcaker","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"I thought I was fine too, but every day I'm thankful I decided to seek help when I needed it"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:34:49","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:0:641344026","name":"Poztaztoz","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"i have 3 whole refined"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:34:48","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:0:502450143","name":"Merk","team":3,"is_team":0,"message":"60?"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:34:47","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:1:524815026","name":"SirLiamTheGreat","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"blud asking for a key"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:34:44","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:0:502450143","name":"Merk","team":3,"is_team":0,"message":"how much is a key"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:34:36","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:0:651258089","name":"Balling chicken","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"i got 5"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:34:33","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:1:444984258","name":"Ralsei","team":3,"is_team":0,"message":"Sure"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:34:25","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:0:36026257","name":"Thegoldenhotdog","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"Ralsei if you have something we should alternate musics"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:34:02","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:1:444984258","name":"Ralsei","team":3,"is_team":0,"message":"Sorry"},{"ts":"2026-03-04 03:33:24","server_id":"Main Event\/Trade Server","map":"trade_weezyville_v1_0","steam32":"STEAM_0:0:518714144","name":"dytamic","team":2,"is_team":0,"message":"nor am i too unafraid of death to warrant actually carrying through"}]}